Take It Easy

Sometimes I think that I am too easygoing. I try not to expect too much out of others, and when people let me down or make me sad, I am always quick to make them feel better about it, sometimes even to the point of turning it around to where they walk away feeling like I really gave them no choice but to let me down, and I'm sure they don't feel badly about it.

Lately I've noticed how other people handle themselves when let down, whether it is real or perceived. They stomp around, send angry emails that demand the respect and attention they deserve, and they get it. I hear others talking about these people in hushed tones, mainly saying things like "don't make him or her mad. Just do whatever he/she says." As if that person is some kind of emotional bank robber. Such power, such power.

As much as I would love to have power, respect and admiration, I think it may be too late in my personal development to adopt that kind of an attitude about how others treat me and do things in general. I think it is too late to be the kind of person who knows without a doubt how the world should work and struggles each day to be sure everyone bends to that vision. Besides, it seems exhausting.